I am genuinely on the edge of breaking down.
My head is in such a mess. Ok so I screwed up big time, and im regretting it so much. how can you go from being so close to the phrase "we are just friends". I thought I could come to terms with it as she said we would still hug and kiss (some of the best i have ever had) but seeing her kiss someone else genuinely hurt... and it basically is the fact that i don't want our moments to just become a thing or for her to have them with anyone else. Thats the female issue done.
Then my nan died so I feel a little lost.